God and I were talking about court on Monday. I was letting Him know that I really needed our case to go to trial...I am so tired of waiting and having DHS in my home, telling me what to do, having to ask permission to pick my nose, I am just tired. I was thinking that maybe we should just hire our own attorney and get this whole thing overwith. If we hire our own attorney, it would definately make DHS mad, but once we get tpr on bio dad, our adoption would go much faster. (Remember...Jake's took 10 months and that was with NO problems other than the lack of DHS participation in the matter!)
I was also talking to Him about our January baby and all the details regarding that. Here is what God told me:
"Those who trust in the Lord are as secure as Mount Zion; they will not be defeated but will endure forever. Just as the mountains surround and protect Jerusalem, so the Lord surrounds and protects His people, both now and forever." (Psalm 125:1-2)
And about hiring a lawyer: "If a wise person takes a fool to court, there will be ranting and ridicule, but no satisfaction." (Proverbs 29:9) I am considering myself to be the "wise" one here and DHS the "fool"! I am always totally amazed when God answers a prayer so quickly and specifically.
I also want to share a conversation that "S" and I had today. She came to us when she was 2 1/2 years old. We were her first glimpse of stability and normal family life.
S - What are you doing?
Me - Sewing (I explained to her a little bit more about what I was doing.)
S - Can I sew like you?
Me - Well, when you are older you can.
S - When I am older like you, can I spank people??
Me - (spitting my Pepsi) Well, I guess if you have kids that are naughty, you can spank them, but you can't just spank "people" in general!
S - When I am older like you, I'm gonna have four children.
Me - Really? You are going to have four children?
S - Yes, and when we get a baby, the children will hold it all the time.
Me - That sounds like a plan!
She wants what we have and that makes me feel extremely humbled and gratified. Healing babies...it's what I have been called to have a part in. I am also amazed at how a child not of my biology can be so much like us...she has my heart for children.
Here are a few pics we had taken for Christmas cards and such...I thought they turned out pretty well considering this was done only a few hours after we learned about the medical examiner's report on Jacob...
This is Noah...he was the "baby" of the family for WAY too long! He LOVES attention!
"What are you doing, Noah???"